[ooc] first impression/question meme

[hawkwardmoment]

I THINK THIS IS LIKE... THE FIRST TIME I GOT 1000 COMMENTS IN LESS THAN A YEAR. So to celebrate:

ASK A QUESTION it can be anything CFUD related, OOC, IC, First Impressions, Relationship, psychology, thoughts, whatever. I.E. My character's opinion of your character or maybe what you have been wondering about this behavior or that, or general thoughts on my characters or canons or what, who I might consider topping you into apping, etc.

When I reply I will also ask you a question in turn!

My characters aside from Hawke are Chroche, Yurippe, Jin Kisaragi, and Theodore.

Comments

[fistingthing]

And then Hawke walked in and everything in his head went out the window as soon as they started to talk. Angry and upset as he was, he couldn't stay angry. Not at Hawke. Not when she had just helped him kill Danarius, for nothing more than . . . a nearly complete lack of gratitude. Really, compared to everything she had done for him, that anger seemed entirely misplaced, completely unnecessary.

And as they spoke, he finally worked up the nerve to talk to her about their brief time together. He made his decision then: even if this love was bondage, even if he simply traded a master who bound him by blood and chains for one who bound him with love and kind deeds, he wanted this. He wanted Hawke, he wanted to be hers. And if it was possible that she loved him back, then perhaps as a mututal form of bondage, it wouldn't be so bad at all. When she forgave him, that was the most dizzyingly happy moment of his life to date. He's not good at happy! He can do content decently enough, but happy is a challenge. She made him very, very happy.

And then they made each other very, very happy. ;) Fenris has a very nice bed in that room . . .

Moving on, Anders' confrontation of Hawke over Fenris didn't even threaten Fenris, after that. Simply another reason to dislike Anders, as if he didn't already have sufficient. Hawke standing by him was not unexpected; he trusted her, and his trust was rewarded.

And then the shit hit the fan. Fenris argued for the Templars because he knows the danger of mages, very personally, but he never expected Hawke to listen - and when she chose the mages, he followed her both because he loved her and because he knew he could trust her to work for the best even if he personally would have taken a different route.

So yes, Hawke has his trust. Her magic does not always - he can't help that, though he's trying to work on it. Hawke helped him to see that holding onto this hate and anger is eating him up, doing things to him he doesn't want. He wants to let it go, now. It's just not easy, not at all.

To conclude this rambling, spoiler-laden essay, Fenris means that "I am yours." He could never say that lightly, not with his past. He really does mean that she owns him, body, heart, and soul. And he is okay with this. He knows she won't use it to hurt him. He's done with being skittish and running. This is where he wants to be. At this point, it's as simple as that.

Now you know the true meaning of 'tl;dr'.